Well...as some of you know I am back on Myspace. Say Wha!? Yes...I did it again! The hubby was gone this past weekend to guard drill and I got so BORED! How can you get bored with 4 kids, being a housewife, and having a part-time!? Well...its easy really...I am so use to my hubby being with me at night that I just kinda got wrapped up in the loneliness of him being gone. Yea...I know it was only for a weekend! But let me tell ya...I had LOADS of clothes to wash/fold/put up and I did it all within 2 days with the exception of one of those days staying up till 2am. And I hate doing Laundry!! Guess that goes to show ya how BORED I was...lol! I did confess to the hubby and a couple of others that I was back on. Am I addicted...? I am sorry to say that I am...But to respectfully justify that it is only for good reason. I enjoy the fact that I can keep in touch with the click of a button and esp. enjoy that I can express myself thru music and writing. I have friends/family that are on facebook that aren't on myspace...vise versa. I did however had to change a few setting on it because as I stated on my previous blog some took it to seriously...let me mind you I want add "those kind" again! Or at least try not to....I think sometimes I just don't have the HEART to delete or not add....my weakness. Oh...plus...the hubby will be gone a good bit next month...:( I'm sure you will see and hear more from me. As far as the "importance of"...I have definetly prioritized things during the time I was off of it. Well, thats my confession.
ANother thing...
When the hubby got home...he clapped and congrats me on a job well done on the clothes...lol! Oh and yesterday...which I thought was so SWEET and I really was suprised to hear! He said, "Babe I just want to tell you that I have noticed you have been working really hard at keeping the house clean and neat and I just wanted to tell you Thank-you and that you have been doing such a good job...Love you!" He NOTICED!!! LOL! It was really good to hear that from him! He's my BESTIES Friend!!!!:)
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
The Love Dare
I finally bought the book! I just loved the movie (FIREPROOF) and would recommend it and the book to anyone! The hubby and I went to go watch it in Southhaven...since it didn't look like it was coming to our area. I hope more movies come out like this one. It is much needed in today's society!
Back to the book "The Love Dare"
All I can say is WOW! Its a bit harder than I thought...not meaning the actual dare...but the part where you have to NOT say anything "negative" towards your spouse. I mean...I already feel like I carry a HEAVY load and when I don't get full cooperation...well, I tend to complain a bit. I'm working on it though...:)
Right now I am on Dare 3...so far so good. Today's Dare is not over though...The hubby hasn't come home from work yet...lol! I did buy him something to let him know I was thinking of him...:) I made him a basket full of goodies...:) He will be going to Drill this weekend so I figured I would get him some things he might need for his trip and a special card...:) I hope he likes it! Well, I better go...I'm going to go put it in his truck at work...;)
The Love Dare to be continued...
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
This is IT! :)
OH MY!!...I so happened to read this one today and it sounded so much like me! I just had to re-post for someone out there to read...lol! Notice the TITLE of my Blog...;) I'm still learning how to "Be still".
The Best of Intentions
It begins with the very best of intentions.
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
Prayer area, snuggled in my bed, low light on ~ check
Bible ~ check
Devotional Study ~ check
Something to sip on ~ check
Pen, journal and anything else I've scooped up along the way ~ check
I have worked hard in "quieting my soul." I come prepared and if I'm being honest (and I am), I have to admit that sometimes it sounds like this:
"Father God, I want to put myself in a place of peace with you....drats, I forgot to take meat out for dinner, and the girls owe money today for class; have to remember to write that check, trash goes out tomorrow and recycling too."
"Oops, I lost focus for a moment, but I'm back God. I want more than anything to be in your perfect will and oh man, that lesson plan for Friday, haven't done it yet and tomorrow if I get up early I can exercise, and I need to get the kids to get those thank you notes done, and I told them I'd bring cookies to class, what kind should I bake? I really have to get that hair color for my hair."
Again...I've lost my prayer focus.I'm distracted not by the things that surround me physically, but the distractions in my mind. I've quieted myself and now I have to quiet my soul, and truly 'be still.'
“God never ceases to speak to us, but the noise of the world without and the tumult of our passions within bewilder us and prevent us from listening to him." Francois Fenelon
It frustrates me and I'm working on it. I imagine many women with to-do lists a mile long are plagued with the same distractions. We physically slow down, but we don't slow our minds down long enough to center ourselves on God, and yet we expect to 'hear' Him amidst the noises within our heads that disrupt our time of 'stillness.'I have come up with a few things that work for a gal in perpetual motion like myself. Before I come to my "quiet time" I make my lists. All of the things that tend to distract me from my time with the Lord. The lists are a mile long some days, but if I make the list, then when I come to my time with the Lord I can focus on what He is saying and not on the tasks of the day. I can mention those things on the list that are troubling my heart and instead of it being a distraction, it becomes part of the prayer.I've also learned how to not WAIT for quiet time to engage in a heart to heart with my God. This Martha spirit has learned to slow down a bit, and I've learned to pray my way through the day. I have a journal that I'm keeping with me so that when I'm sitting waiting to pick up a child, I can be seizing the quiet moment in the car.I have tried for the past few years to "set aside" time, and in that I've neglected the opportunities of quiet that appear throughout the day. These "quiet moments" come in unlikely places, usually when I'm doing something that causes others to "scatter." Folding laundry, showering and coming home from dropping a child off at classes are ALL "be still and know that I am God" opportunities in the midst of a hurried life. I am learning that there are opportunities within the chaos to be "momentarily still" and utter a prayer of thanks for the warm water or the coffee that flows. There are times when I can still my soul within the daily demands. I don't have to completely shut down to let God in.God knows my heart, He KNOWS that I long to have a conversation with Him that is intimate and constant. He understands where I am. He knows what I struggle with and it's in talking constantly to Him that I feel connected, really connected. He hears the interruptions that fill my day, and HE longs to be a part of it all. Talking to Him throughout the day has made it such that when I do 'stop' for the day, I can truly stop and 'be still' with Him, knowing that all along I've been sharing the details He longs to hear. It's in that peace that I can quiet myself and truly, in my quiet time, "BE STILL and KNOW that HE is GOD" (psalm 46:10).
I ponder a quote that I read some time back that has helped me in praying continually to God,
“There is not in the world a kind of life more sweet and delightful than that of a continual conversation with God.” Brother Lawrence
Father,Guide me as I journey into a more intimate relationship with you. Help me to treat you as my best friend, chatting with you continually throughout the day. Help me to "sieze" the quiet moments that you carefully place in my day so that I may quiet my spirit and "be still," even for a few moments to hear your voice and feel your presence. I want to throw off all that hinders me, and I want to run the race with endurance. I want to feel your presence at my side, not just in the quiet moments but in the chaos that is daily life as well. It's involving YOU in every part of my day Lord that I will draw closer to you, and that is truly my heart's desire.Amen
Join Lori daily at her personal blogspot, where she can be found finding Jesus in the daily details of her life. She is continually learning how to "be still."
The Best of Intentions
It begins with the very best of intentions.
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
Prayer area, snuggled in my bed, low light on ~ check
Bible ~ check
Devotional Study ~ check
Something to sip on ~ check
Pen, journal and anything else I've scooped up along the way ~ check
I have worked hard in "quieting my soul." I come prepared and if I'm being honest (and I am), I have to admit that sometimes it sounds like this:
"Father God, I want to put myself in a place of peace with you....drats, I forgot to take meat out for dinner, and the girls owe money today for class; have to remember to write that check, trash goes out tomorrow and recycling too."
"Oops, I lost focus for a moment, but I'm back God. I want more than anything to be in your perfect will and oh man, that lesson plan for Friday, haven't done it yet and tomorrow if I get up early I can exercise, and I need to get the kids to get those thank you notes done, and I told them I'd bring cookies to class, what kind should I bake? I really have to get that hair color for my hair."
Again...I've lost my prayer focus.I'm distracted not by the things that surround me physically, but the distractions in my mind. I've quieted myself and now I have to quiet my soul, and truly 'be still.'
“God never ceases to speak to us, but the noise of the world without and the tumult of our passions within bewilder us and prevent us from listening to him." Francois Fenelon
It frustrates me and I'm working on it. I imagine many women with to-do lists a mile long are plagued with the same distractions. We physically slow down, but we don't slow our minds down long enough to center ourselves on God, and yet we expect to 'hear' Him amidst the noises within our heads that disrupt our time of 'stillness.'I have come up with a few things that work for a gal in perpetual motion like myself. Before I come to my "quiet time" I make my lists. All of the things that tend to distract me from my time with the Lord. The lists are a mile long some days, but if I make the list, then when I come to my time with the Lord I can focus on what He is saying and not on the tasks of the day. I can mention those things on the list that are troubling my heart and instead of it being a distraction, it becomes part of the prayer.I've also learned how to not WAIT for quiet time to engage in a heart to heart with my God. This Martha spirit has learned to slow down a bit, and I've learned to pray my way through the day. I have a journal that I'm keeping with me so that when I'm sitting waiting to pick up a child, I can be seizing the quiet moment in the car.I have tried for the past few years to "set aside" time, and in that I've neglected the opportunities of quiet that appear throughout the day. These "quiet moments" come in unlikely places, usually when I'm doing something that causes others to "scatter." Folding laundry, showering and coming home from dropping a child off at classes are ALL "be still and know that I am God" opportunities in the midst of a hurried life. I am learning that there are opportunities within the chaos to be "momentarily still" and utter a prayer of thanks for the warm water or the coffee that flows. There are times when I can still my soul within the daily demands. I don't have to completely shut down to let God in.God knows my heart, He KNOWS that I long to have a conversation with Him that is intimate and constant. He understands where I am. He knows what I struggle with and it's in talking constantly to Him that I feel connected, really connected. He hears the interruptions that fill my day, and HE longs to be a part of it all. Talking to Him throughout the day has made it such that when I do 'stop' for the day, I can truly stop and 'be still' with Him, knowing that all along I've been sharing the details He longs to hear. It's in that peace that I can quiet myself and truly, in my quiet time, "BE STILL and KNOW that HE is GOD" (psalm 46:10).
I ponder a quote that I read some time back that has helped me in praying continually to God,
“There is not in the world a kind of life more sweet and delightful than that of a continual conversation with God.” Brother Lawrence
Father,Guide me as I journey into a more intimate relationship with you. Help me to treat you as my best friend, chatting with you continually throughout the day. Help me to "sieze" the quiet moments that you carefully place in my day so that I may quiet my spirit and "be still," even for a few moments to hear your voice and feel your presence. I want to throw off all that hinders me, and I want to run the race with endurance. I want to feel your presence at my side, not just in the quiet moments but in the chaos that is daily life as well. It's involving YOU in every part of my day Lord that I will draw closer to you, and that is truly my heart's desire.Amen
Join Lori daily at her personal blogspot, where she can be found finding Jesus in the daily details of her life. She is continually learning how to "be still."
Saturday, January 17, 2009
These Smiles...:)
Look at the smiles on these faces would ya! Let me give you a lil'background.
My hubby bought this Honda off of my brother which was given to him by my dad. Anywho...my hubby has been wanting one to fix up so he could practice his riding. He has had it for a good while now and has tinkered with it off and on. He recruited another friend (not pictured) and he would come over every day after work to help kenny out. Well...on this particular night we heard something different coming from the back yard...lol! In this pic on right is Doug. His wife is also a good friend of mine. We were inside when we heard the loud noise of this thing. We told each other that they finally got it! Let me mind you it was getting really close to my bed time...lol! I'm sorry it was passed my bed time! It was 1 o'clock in the morning passed my bed time! Kenny rode it to the front and I had to catch a picture of these guys and there accomplishment. If you look closely...that is a riding lawn mower gas tank ontop/infront of kenny, the original has holes in it. My hubby was so happy this day and also so very tired. He doesn't want it to get out that he has it running yet. He wants to make it a surprise! So, keep it on the "down low"...;) I tell ya though...We OWE Doug BIG TIME! Another day full of GOOD FRIENDS!
Thankful and truly blessed!
Cecily
Friday, January 16, 2009
The Myspace World
I did it! I finally deleted my myspace account! It hasn't even been a week yet, but I am ok with it. I can't believe it has got to this point. There has been this "feeling" I have been having about it for some time now...but just have been ignoring it! On several occasions I have either deleted some friends or rather acquaintances, or kept my account open with no friends. There has just been something about the thing that just bothers me inside. I just figured why NOT delete it and stop coming up with excuses to KEEP IT. I have come to find that some people take it WAAAAY to seriously!! I just want to take a break from it FOR NOW. I had started becoming consumed with it. I just feel like I could be doing other productive things! I think most of us stay at home moms will become consumed with it because we feel like we have NO social life. Its addicting and I don't like the THOUGHT of being addicted to something! I've even gone as far as to tell my hubby to turn off our internet that way we could save that money. Who knows that might be next...and I will have to go back to writing in my journal....lol! Which will be ok too...because I kinda miss the simpler things.
Well, I know you think there has to be more to it than that for you to go to that Extreme. Why go and delete the account when you could have done this or that you may wander!? Well the way I did it was weighed out the pros and cons. In my case I came up with more cons than pros. Its just that simple. I'm not saying I will not create another one...just at this time....I feel like I need the piece of mind knowing more of my TIME is going elsewhere of more importance than sitting at this computer...and as my hubby would say..."playing on myspace".
Thank you Lord for giving me the will power ( I can't believe I have to have will power for something like this) and continually showing me there are things more IMPORTANT!
P.S.
This is only in my case.
I do have facebook...but it's not nearly the same! Some would agree!?
Lesson Learned
Cecily
Well, I know you think there has to be more to it than that for you to go to that Extreme. Why go and delete the account when you could have done this or that you may wander!? Well the way I did it was weighed out the pros and cons. In my case I came up with more cons than pros. Its just that simple. I'm not saying I will not create another one...just at this time....I feel like I need the piece of mind knowing more of my TIME is going elsewhere of more importance than sitting at this computer...and as my hubby would say..."playing on myspace".
Thank you Lord for giving me the will power ( I can't believe I have to have will power for something like this) and continually showing me there are things more IMPORTANT!
P.S.
This is only in my case.
I do have facebook...but it's not nearly the same! Some would agree!?
Lesson Learned
Cecily
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Keeping my Cool and my Sweeties!
Hey there!
I'm goin to try and attempt this tonight while Harlee is still awake. If I don't make sense...you'll know why...lol! Kenny took my other 3 to the VFW to do "MY" work. My sweet, sweet hubby! I think he knew Momma needed a break! There has been alot on my mind here lately. Well, let me just get started...
PAUSE----gotta get Harlee off the Modem
K, Just this past Tues. we have had an issue on the house come up again. I'll get to that "issue" in a minute. I'll start by saying I woke up that morning in a fairly good mood(meaning I didn't want to get out of bed...lol!) I went to work that morning and came home early. Kenny then called me wanting to do lunch. I got in and then some friends called wanting to come over with their nephews to play with my youngens. I was cleaning at the time and was a lil hesitant on saying OK...but I did cause I got to thinking they don't ask to do that very much and who cares what my house looks like. Believe me it was a MESS!! They arrived and with my many apologies with my piles of laundry on the couch, piles of dirty laundry in the mud room, with the added toys everywhere, oh and lets not forget the piles of dishes in the sink! It looked like Tornado central! They are always sweet to say...Girl, you have 4 kids...you do a very good job! I guess we are always harder on ourselves! Anywho...I wanted to make coffee for them...so I got started! Well, something dripped on my hand...I looked up and drips of water was coming down from the ceiling! OH GREAT! My friends husband poked a hole in it thinking the water would come gushing out...because by then it had created a bubble. We then rushed outside...he got on the roof while it was still raining to see if there was any damage...but none was to be found. He went to True Value to get a tarp for us. In the mean time I called Kenny and he was on his way. It was just me and my friend and I had become a bit quiet....thinking I guess. Not sure whether to just scream, cry, or pull my hair out! During my "thinking" and talking with my friend here and there. The kids had more toys everywhere and Harlee had done wrote on the NEW furniture with a Marker! My friend finally said..."Its ok to cry...I don't know how you keep it all in. I would have done cried already." I was a bit surprised at how calm I seemed...more like I wasn't "really" there. Earth to Cecily....your house is falling apart and kids are creating added chaos all around you! But you know....thats not what I was thinking at all. I was thinking, I can't wait to be alone with my husband so we can see what our next step will be. And how thankful I was for my friends being there again at the right time. I couldn't say Thank-You enough for My friends hubby helping my hubby putting the tarp on the roof. There's nothing like GOOD friends!
After they left all I wanted to do was HUG my hubby! Its funny what a Hug will do!:) We then began our discussion on what to do next. I really like how my hubby thinks. He began by saying we musn't make our decision on emotion...because that was exactly what I was doing! So, we both had to take a step back and re-evaluate the situation. This portion to be continued....
On another note...Later that night, I was wanting to zone out a bit. So, I got on my myspace and started listening to my music. As I was as you say zoning in and out...lol! I was watching Kenny play with the kids like he use to when Meri and Tristen were really small. They were rolling on the floor laughing...play fighting, just having fun with daddy. The kids just love this time with him! After they wore daddy out...Kenny and Tristen decided to go to the store. They got back and Kenny told me Tristen had something for me. So, Tristen brings out this card and kenny told me to read it....I can't remember at the moment what the card said...but when I opened it, it was playing the chicken song and Kenny and Tristen started doing the chicken dance...LOL! It made me laugh and laugh! Oh my sweeties! I guess I didn't realize how my mood was reading out to my children. My boy knew momma needed some cheer-up! I asked Kenny if he told Tristen to get this for me. He said No...as soon as he walked in he told me he wanted to get you some flowers or something. My sweet lil'man! When we least expect it the Lord brings you BACK to realize whats more important...Family, Friends!
In Prayer
In Thought
In Thanks
Cecily
I'm goin to try and attempt this tonight while Harlee is still awake. If I don't make sense...you'll know why...lol! Kenny took my other 3 to the VFW to do "MY" work. My sweet, sweet hubby! I think he knew Momma needed a break! There has been alot on my mind here lately. Well, let me just get started...
PAUSE----gotta get Harlee off the Modem
K, Just this past Tues. we have had an issue on the house come up again. I'll get to that "issue" in a minute. I'll start by saying I woke up that morning in a fairly good mood(meaning I didn't want to get out of bed...lol!) I went to work that morning and came home early. Kenny then called me wanting to do lunch. I got in and then some friends called wanting to come over with their nephews to play with my youngens. I was cleaning at the time and was a lil hesitant on saying OK...but I did cause I got to thinking they don't ask to do that very much and who cares what my house looks like. Believe me it was a MESS!! They arrived and with my many apologies with my piles of laundry on the couch, piles of dirty laundry in the mud room, with the added toys everywhere, oh and lets not forget the piles of dishes in the sink! It looked like Tornado central! They are always sweet to say...Girl, you have 4 kids...you do a very good job! I guess we are always harder on ourselves! Anywho...I wanted to make coffee for them...so I got started! Well, something dripped on my hand...I looked up and drips of water was coming down from the ceiling! OH GREAT! My friends husband poked a hole in it thinking the water would come gushing out...because by then it had created a bubble. We then rushed outside...he got on the roof while it was still raining to see if there was any damage...but none was to be found. He went to True Value to get a tarp for us. In the mean time I called Kenny and he was on his way. It was just me and my friend and I had become a bit quiet....thinking I guess. Not sure whether to just scream, cry, or pull my hair out! During my "thinking" and talking with my friend here and there. The kids had more toys everywhere and Harlee had done wrote on the NEW furniture with a Marker! My friend finally said..."Its ok to cry...I don't know how you keep it all in. I would have done cried already." I was a bit surprised at how calm I seemed...more like I wasn't "really" there. Earth to Cecily....your house is falling apart and kids are creating added chaos all around you! But you know....thats not what I was thinking at all. I was thinking, I can't wait to be alone with my husband so we can see what our next step will be. And how thankful I was for my friends being there again at the right time. I couldn't say Thank-You enough for My friends hubby helping my hubby putting the tarp on the roof. There's nothing like GOOD friends!
After they left all I wanted to do was HUG my hubby! Its funny what a Hug will do!:) We then began our discussion on what to do next. I really like how my hubby thinks. He began by saying we musn't make our decision on emotion...because that was exactly what I was doing! So, we both had to take a step back and re-evaluate the situation. This portion to be continued....
On another note...Later that night, I was wanting to zone out a bit. So, I got on my myspace and started listening to my music. As I was as you say zoning in and out...lol! I was watching Kenny play with the kids like he use to when Meri and Tristen were really small. They were rolling on the floor laughing...play fighting, just having fun with daddy. The kids just love this time with him! After they wore daddy out...Kenny and Tristen decided to go to the store. They got back and Kenny told me Tristen had something for me. So, Tristen brings out this card and kenny told me to read it....I can't remember at the moment what the card said...but when I opened it, it was playing the chicken song and Kenny and Tristen started doing the chicken dance...LOL! It made me laugh and laugh! Oh my sweeties! I guess I didn't realize how my mood was reading out to my children. My boy knew momma needed some cheer-up! I asked Kenny if he told Tristen to get this for me. He said No...as soon as he walked in he told me he wanted to get you some flowers or something. My sweet lil'man! When we least expect it the Lord brings you BACK to realize whats more important...Family, Friends!
In Prayer
In Thought
In Thanks
Cecily
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