Some days are just hard...

Hey there! I haven't posted in awhile and feel like I need this blog more than ever right now. My hubby is currently deployed.  As far as my circumstances at the moment thing are pressing real hard on me. There are times where I can really pull myself out of the darkness...but this darkness seems to be really lingering. I know God is faithful and there is light at the end of this tunnel, but its a hardship I'm really trying to see God's good in whether its teaching me to be patient or to be quick not to anger. It has created Anxiety, so much so that at times I feel my heart pounding out of my chest. I feel like I can't take it anymore! I wanna RUN and HIDE! Where are the people!? Where is the compassion!? I really wish my hubby was here right now. He knows how to calm me. I wish I could share my "troubles" but there seems to be NO ONE who understands. I got myself into something, now that I wish I hadn't. I believe in peoples words and of course it ONLY gets me in trouble. I pleaded my case and even cried because of the stress it is causing me. But not sure if this person is even AT ALL sympathetic of my circumstances. I'm through with these people around here. I could have never been in a most UNpatriotic place! So called "friends" dropped from the face of the earth!!?  Family...what is that!? I only hear from a handful! There has got to be a better way of reaching out to military families!!? I know I can't be the only one feeling this way!!? Even my church has dissapointed me....they have no clue. Guess its no ones fault...but this is where ya wish you lived on a miltary post. I mean when I lived in Clarksville, TN....complete strangers treated me better than this!! WHY!? Cause they knew what it was like!! I think I'm through venting for now. Just hope and pray that things will get better. There has been so much on me since the hubby left....:( I miss'em!! Some days are just hard...

*Lil' Update*

It has been almost a year since my last blog. ALOT has happened since then. To much to put in just one blog, some have been good and some have been bad, but in all, all has been well. The Lord continues to bless the Johnson family. He has been my Rock during all my troubles. I would have failed if I didn't have Him to lean on. I've also have had such great joy knowing he is my Lord and savior. He has taught me to forgive, be humble, and give others words of wisdom. I'm still learning and He is still teaching. We continue our journey as He still molds and shapes us. To be continued... 

~The Johnson Family :)

The Fight...thats worth fighting for!

Fight!?...you wander...What fight!?
The fight for your marriage!!
Yes...I'm not at all afraid to be open to the fact that Kenny and I have had our share of battles. Some where it felt like there was no hope, no happiness, no love! On June 30th...we celebrated our 8th year of marriage. We also confessed all our short-comings too. Your probably wandering why would you want to do that on your anniversary!? Well, it was not at all what we had intended for the evening...but it all seemed to just flow out. Its funny how we let temptation stare us in the face, nose to nose and never have the guts to runaway from it. Its funny how we self-consciously do the things we do...knowing in the back of our minds its wrong. Why do we continue to hurt the people we love? Well...I tell ya what!? This man and woman are willing to fight and do whatever it takes for what we believe in! And we believe in our Marriage!! I know my baby loves me...so much so...that he has shown me more than ever within these past few days! There are going to be some changin goin on around here and I'm ready! God brought this man in my life for a reason and some may think its petty for me to say such things...but I believe it! God loves me yall!! :) HE has given me such a good man and 4 beautiful children! If that's not love...I don't know what is? I am so blessed and will fight for what I believe in! I'm sure we will have more battles ahead of us...but I'm sure that this time we will be fully equipped with the armor of God...cause yall I'm willing to fight this battle on the home front with NO FEAR!! Because... Our Marriage is worth fighting for...NO QUESTIONS ASKED!!

Alot is on my mind today...not sure where to begin...
We lost a family member this past week. Wow...what a shocker! I guess we just sometimes take life for granted and think some people can live forever! I don't remember alot of things about cousin Johnny, but I knew he was always sweet to me. Whenever I saw him...he was always giving me a compliment...what a sweetheart! I hate sometimes that our family is so distant and we lose touch with certain family members. I miss our family being close-knit...like it use to be when paw-paw was alive. Its sad that we get so caught up in this fast paced world...that we can never seem to make the time. Time is so precious!! Each time we lose someone...I believe its also God's reminder to us that time is precious and living your life for Him is important! I will be making the trip to AL Friday or Sat. and I'm not at all looking forward to it...under the circumstances, but I want to be there for my family! I love all of them...whether they realize it or not... even if some have said or done hurtful and hateful things...I still, love them ALL!!

May you R.I.P. Cousin Johnny! May Eva (his sister) be waiting for you through those heavenly gates with open arms.

Lord, be with Aunt Mary Helen and her family as they are going through another lose...may you comfort them in knowing that he is in a better place. Be with those who are making the trip to AL and home again...that we may have safe travels! In Jesus name we pray! Amen.

We love you Johnny and you will be truely missed!

A God Sent!

Ok...enough about the negativity about a past relationship gone wrong...lets just say, this time I HAVE left it in the Lords hands. There is nothing more I can do...but be ME! Even after getting hurt again...I will stand tall and just pray that the Lord will soften her heart from her bitterness and one day open her eyes so she may SEE!

On a lighter note...I am SO,SO Truly blessed that the Lord has brought a wonderful friend back into my life. I think he knew I would need her to lean on during these trials and tribulations. She has been AWESOME and I don't know what I would do without her. She is like another sister to me. She has been there to lift my spirits when I was down and has been such an inspiration! I love her so much! We have known each other for 9 years or more and she has seen my life come full circle. We have shared many tears and even have had our share of dis-agreements and quarrels...but we always remained friends. I tell ya...ya can't find them like that anymore. Friendships take work....just like any other relationship. I have to say...she is one that never gave up on me...:*)

This is my YOYO! :) Its funny...cause we prayed for each other during college. We became distant when we both got married...but kept in touch some. It wasn't until the Lord moved her job and it so happened to be close to me...:)
God is awesome and He knows all of our needs!!

Thank-You Lord, for sending me an angel in disguise!
Cecily

WOW!! It has been awhile! Over 2mths to be exact! ALOT has gone on from my last post. Where to begin...? I will start with friendships...
As stated in my last blog I went threw some struggles with one of my "close" friends. The end result...we are on talking terms, but things will never be the same. The issue bothered me so much even after I would pray and pray! I left it ALL in God's hand, but I really felt like HE was speaking to me one Sunday morning. I told myself I was goin to give her one last call (let me mind you that I made several attempts to call her and NO answer). Well...still NO answer....so I left a message pleading that we talk this out today if all possible. I was so ready to let her know that it was all BLOWN way out of context. What really bothered me was that she was willing to let our friendship just go by the Wayside...like she never even knew me...dropped from the face of the earth! After leaving a message...I went to my room and picked up the guitar and played a song/prayer to God....yea sounds weird, but I tend to do that sometimes...it helps me! The phone rang...I dropped the guitar and automatically knew who it was!! She was willing to meet and asked if my hubby would come. I agreed. I was a bit fustrated that the hubby's had to be there considering it was something I was wanting to work out between us. Well...lets just say I'm glad he did come...I'll tell ya why later! We got there and I brought her a few goodies to clear the air. We finally began our long over due conversation...I told her a lil bit how I have been feeling. But then the mic was turned over and I let her talk for the most part. I was a bit disgusted by her way of thinking...I was like WHO is this person!? I began to plea to her my case, but found out quick that she still had her "wall" up and was not listening at all to a word I was saying. To make a long story short, as we were talking inside, the hubby's talked too about the situation. We made it home and I was glad it was Over...sort of. They came over to visit later that day and she saisd she talked to her hubby and that she FORGAVE me. I was a bit taken back that it took her hubby to convince her! I dunno....I just know that things will never be the same...cause you tend to learn alot about a person during a conflict. She forgave me...but what did I really do wrong!? Being honest...!? I was played out to be the "villian"! But I humbled myself and let her "think" so...
Anywho...she has started to call me from time to time and MAYBE we will get back to where we were. I just know God has his plan for WHY she is in my life...guess only time will tell!
--Kids will soon be home...
to be continued...

Honesty...? I'm confused!?

Well...its been along time and of course sense then alot has gone on! But one thing that stands out more than anything or rather something that has been bothering me is...Well...I was totally honest with a friend the other day. I mean...I thought I was being a "real" friend! But since then she hasn't called...yea its only been a day...buts I feel like she has taken it waaaay out of context and put up a defense. I am trying not to worry about it. I simply pointed out what she was doing has been making me and others uncomfortable. It wasn't until I took a step back though and realized why she may be doing the things she was doing. Well, the new girl in the group confided in me about it and then I told her I had felt the same at first (which prolly made it worse). I think I just blew it by being honest with my long time friend or was being honest about it the best thing...? I dunno...I'm a bit confused!? I just know I felt so bad talking about my friend to another (negatively) that I came home to the hubby and crawled in his lap about to cry asking him what should I do and how bad of a person I was. I then called the "new girl" and told her how I felt and didn't want her to think this and that about me since I had talked that way. I dunno...it was just on my conscience and I couldn't rest until I talked to one of them! Well...I ended up talking to BOTH! I think I will let it rest for now. Maybe with a lil time things will get straightened out or either I'll lose a friend or 2...:( Friendships are so hard when you are married with 4 youngens. I think I just need to re-focus!

Confession and Love

Well...as some of you know I am back on Myspace. Say Wha!? Yes...I did it again! The hubby was gone this past weekend to guard drill and I got so BORED! How can you get bored with 4 kids, being a housewife, and having a part-time!? Well...its easy really...I am so use to my hubby being with me at night that I just kinda got wrapped up in the loneliness of him being gone. Yea...I know it was only for a weekend! But let me tell ya...I had LOADS of clothes to wash/fold/put up and I did it all within 2 days with the exception of one of those days staying up till 2am. And I hate doing Laundry!! Guess that goes to show ya how BORED I was...lol! I did confess to the hubby and a couple of others that I was back on. Am I addicted...? I am sorry to say that I am...But to respectfully justify that it is only for good reason. I enjoy the fact that I can keep in touch with the click of a button and esp. enjoy that I can express myself thru music and writing. I have friends/family that are on facebook that aren't on myspace...vise versa. I did however had to change a few setting on it because as I stated on my previous blog some took it to seriously...let me mind you I want add "those kind" again! Or at least try not to....I think sometimes I just don't have the HEART to delete or not add....my weakness. Oh...plus...the hubby will be gone a good bit next month...:( I'm sure you will see and hear more from me. As far as the "importance of"...I have definetly prioritized things during the time I was off of it. Well, thats my confession.

ANother thing...
When the hubby got home...he clapped and congrats me on a job well done on the clothes...lol! Oh and yesterday...which I thought was so SWEET and I really was suprised to hear! He said, "Babe I just want to tell you that I have noticed you have been working really hard at keeping the house clean and neat and I just wanted to tell you Thank-you and that you have been doing such a good job...Love you!" He NOTICED!!! LOL! It was really good to hear that from him! He's my BESTIES Friend!!!!:)

The Love Dare

I finally bought the book! I just loved the movie (FIREPROOF) and would recommend it and the book to anyone! The hubby and I went to go watch it in Southhaven...since it didn't look like it was coming to our area. I hope more movies come out like this one. It is much needed in today's society!

Back to the book "The Love Dare"

All I can say is WOW! Its a bit harder than I thought...not meaning the actual dare...but the part where you have to NOT say anything "negative" towards your spouse. I mean...I already feel like I carry a HEAVY load and when I don't get full cooperation...well, I tend to complain a bit. I'm working on it though...:)

Right now I am on Dare 3...so far so good. Today's Dare is not over though...The hubby hasn't come home from work yet...lol! I did buy him something to let him know I was thinking of him...:) I made him a basket full of goodies...:) He will be going to Drill this weekend so I figured I would get him some things he might need for his trip and a special card...:) I hope he likes it! Well, I better go...I'm going to go put it in his truck at work...;)

The Love Dare to be continued...

This is IT! :)

OH MY!!...I so happened to read this one today and it sounded so much like me! I just had to re-post for someone out there to read...lol! Notice the TITLE of my Blog...;) I'm still learning how to "Be still".



The Best of Intentions
It begins with the very best of intentions.
"Be still and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10
Prayer area, snuggled in my bed, low light on ~ check
Bible ~ check
Devotional Study ~ check
Something to sip on ~ check
Pen, journal and anything else I've scooped up along the way ~ check

I have worked hard in "quieting my soul." I come prepared and if I'm being honest (and I am), I have to admit that sometimes it sounds like this:
"Father God, I want to put myself in a place of peace with you....drats, I forgot to take meat out for dinner, and the girls owe money today for class; have to remember to write that check, trash goes out tomorrow and recycling too."
"Oops, I lost focus for a moment, but I'm back God. I want more than anything to be in your perfect will and oh man, that lesson plan for Friday, haven't done it yet and tomorrow if I get up early I can exercise, and I need to get the kids to get those thank you notes done, and I told them I'd bring cookies to class, what kind should I bake? I really have to get that hair color for my hair."
Again...I've lost my prayer focus.I'm distracted not by the things that surround me physically, but the distractions in my mind. I've quieted myself and now I have to quiet my soul, and truly 'be still.'
“God never ceases to speak to us, but the noise of the world without and the tumult of our passions within bewilder us and prevent us from listening to him." Francois Fenelon
It frustrates me and I'm working on it. I imagine many women with to-do lists a mile long are plagued with the same distractions. We physically slow down, but we don't slow our minds down long enough to center ourselves on God, and yet we expect to 'hear' Him amidst the noises within our heads that disrupt our time of 'stillness.'I have come up with a few things that work for a gal in perpetual motion like myself. Before I come to my "quiet time" I make my lists. All of the things that tend to distract me from my time with the Lord. The lists are a mile long some days, but if I make the list, then when I come to my time with the Lord I can focus on what He is saying and not on the tasks of the day. I can mention those things on the list that are troubling my heart and instead of it being a distraction, it becomes part of the prayer.I've also learned how to not WAIT for quiet time to engage in a heart to heart with my God. This Martha spirit has learned to slow down a bit, and I've learned to pray my way through the day. I have a journal that I'm keeping with me so that when I'm sitting waiting to pick up a child, I can be seizing the quiet moment in the car.I have tried for the past few years to "set aside" time, and in that I've neglected the opportunities of quiet that appear throughout the day. These "quiet moments" come in unlikely places, usually when I'm doing something that causes others to "scatter." Folding laundry, showering and coming home from dropping a child off at classes are ALL "be still and know that I am God" opportunities in the midst of a hurried life. I am learning that there are opportunities within the chaos to be "momentarily still" and utter a prayer of thanks for the warm water or the coffee that flows. There are times when I can still my soul within the daily demands. I don't have to completely shut down to let God in.God knows my heart, He KNOWS that I long to have a conversation with Him that is intimate and constant. He understands where I am. He knows what I struggle with and it's in talking constantly to Him that I feel connected, really connected. He hears the interruptions that fill my day, and HE longs to be a part of it all. Talking to Him throughout the day has made it such that when I do 'stop' for the day, I can truly stop and 'be still' with Him, knowing that all along I've been sharing the details He longs to hear. It's in that peace that I can quiet myself and truly, in my quiet time, "BE STILL and KNOW that HE is GOD" (psalm 46:10).
I ponder a quote that I read some time back that has helped me in praying continually to God,
“There is not in the world a kind of life more sweet and delightful than that of a continual conversation with God.” Brother Lawrence

Father,Guide me as I journey into a more intimate relationship with you. Help me to treat you as my best friend, chatting with you continually throughout the day. Help me to "sieze" the quiet moments that you carefully place in my day so that I may quiet my spirit and "be still," even for a few moments to hear your voice and feel your presence. I want to throw off all that hinders me, and I want to run the race with endurance. I want to feel your presence at my side, not just in the quiet moments but in the chaos that is daily life as well. It's involving YOU in every part of my day Lord that I will draw closer to you, and that is truly my heart's desire.Amen

Join Lori daily at her personal blogspot, where she can be found finding Jesus in the daily details of her life. She is continually learning how to "be still."

These Smiles...:)

Look at the smiles on these faces would ya! Let me give you a lil'background.
My hubby bought this Honda off of my brother which was given to him by my dad. Anywho...my hubby has been wanting one to fix up so he could practice his riding. He has had it for a good while now and has tinkered with it off and on. He recruited another friend (not pictured) and he would come over every day after work to help kenny out. Well...on this particular night we heard something different coming from the back yard...lol! In this pic on right is Doug. His wife is also a good friend of mine. We were inside when we heard the loud noise of this thing. We told each other that they finally got it! Let me mind you it was getting really close to my bed time...lol! I'm sorry it was passed my bed time! It was 1 o'clock in the morning passed my bed time! Kenny rode it to the front and I had to catch a picture of these guys and there accomplishment. If you look closely...that is a riding lawn mower gas tank ontop/infront of kenny, the original has holes in it. My hubby was so happy this day and also so very tired. He doesn't want it to get out that he has it running yet. He wants to make it a surprise! So, keep it on the "down low"...;) I tell ya though...We OWE Doug BIG TIME! Another day full of GOOD FRIENDS!

Thankful and truly blessed!
Cecily

The Myspace World

I did it! I finally deleted my myspace account! It hasn't even been a week yet, but I am ok with it. I can't believe it has got to this point. There has been this "feeling" I have been having about it for some time now...but just have been ignoring it! On several occasions I have either deleted some friends or rather acquaintances, or kept my account open with no friends. There has just been something about the thing that just bothers me inside. I just figured why NOT delete it and stop coming up with excuses to KEEP IT. I have come to find that some people take it WAAAAY to seriously!! I just want to take a break from it FOR NOW. I had started becoming consumed with it. I just feel like I could be doing other productive things! I think most of us stay at home moms will become consumed with it because we feel like we have NO social life. Its addicting and I don't like the THOUGHT of being addicted to something! I've even gone as far as to tell my hubby to turn off our internet that way we could save that money. Who knows that might be next...and I will have to go back to writing in my journal....lol! Which will be ok too...because I kinda miss the simpler things.

Well, I know you think there has to be more to it than that for you to go to that Extreme. Why go and delete the account when you could have done this or that you may wander!? Well the way I did it was weighed out the pros and cons. In my case I came up with more cons than pros. Its just that simple. I'm not saying I will not create another one...just at this time....I feel like I need the piece of mind knowing more of my TIME is going elsewhere of more importance than sitting at this computer...and as my hubby would say..."playing on myspace".

Thank you Lord for giving me the will power ( I can't believe I have to have will power for something like this) and continually showing me there are things more IMPORTANT!

P.S.
This is only in my case.
I do have facebook...but it's not nearly the same! Some would agree!?

Lesson Learned
Cecily

Keeping my Cool and my Sweeties!

Hey there!

I'm goin to try and attempt this tonight while Harlee is still awake. If I don't make sense...you'll know why...lol! Kenny took my other 3 to the VFW to do "MY" work. My sweet, sweet hubby! I think he knew Momma needed a break! There has been alot on my mind here lately. Well, let me just get started...



PAUSE----gotta get Harlee off the Modem



K, Just this past Tues. we have had an issue on the house come up again. I'll get to that "issue" in a minute. I'll start by saying I woke up that morning in a fairly good mood(meaning I didn't want to get out of bed...lol!) I went to work that morning and came home early. Kenny then called me wanting to do lunch. I got in and then some friends called wanting to come over with their nephews to play with my youngens. I was cleaning at the time and was a lil hesitant on saying OK...but I did cause I got to thinking they don't ask to do that very much and who cares what my house looks like. Believe me it was a MESS!! They arrived and with my many apologies with my piles of laundry on the couch, piles of dirty laundry in the mud room, with the added toys everywhere, oh and lets not forget the piles of dishes in the sink! It looked like Tornado central! They are always sweet to say...Girl, you have 4 kids...you do a very good job! I guess we are always harder on ourselves! Anywho...I wanted to make coffee for them...so I got started! Well, something dripped on my hand...I looked up and drips of water was coming down from the ceiling! OH GREAT! My friends husband poked a hole in it thinking the water would come gushing out...because by then it had created a bubble. We then rushed outside...he got on the roof while it was still raining to see if there was any damage...but none was to be found. He went to True Value to get a tarp for us. In the mean time I called Kenny and he was on his way. It was just me and my friend and I had become a bit quiet....thinking I guess. Not sure whether to just scream, cry, or pull my hair out! During my "thinking" and talking with my friend here and there. The kids had more toys everywhere and Harlee had done wrote on the NEW furniture with a Marker! My friend finally said..."Its ok to cry...I don't know how you keep it all in. I would have done cried already." I was a bit surprised at how calm I seemed...more like I wasn't "really" there. Earth to Cecily....your house is falling apart and kids are creating added chaos all around you! But you know....thats not what I was thinking at all. I was thinking, I can't wait to be alone with my husband so we can see what our next step will be. And how thankful I was for my friends being there again at the right time. I couldn't say Thank-You enough for My friends hubby helping my hubby putting the tarp on the roof. There's nothing like GOOD friends!

After they left all I wanted to do was HUG my hubby! Its funny what a Hug will do!:) We then began our discussion on what to do next. I really like how my hubby thinks. He began by saying we musn't make our decision on emotion...because that was exactly what I was doing! So, we both had to take a step back and re-evaluate the situation. This portion to be continued....

On another note...Later that night, I was wanting to zone out a bit. So, I got on my myspace and started listening to my music. As I was as you say zoning in and out...lol! I was watching Kenny play with the kids like he use to when Meri and Tristen were really small. They were rolling on the floor laughing...play fighting, just having fun with daddy. The kids just love this time with him! After they wore daddy out...Kenny and Tristen decided to go to the store. They got back and Kenny told me Tristen had something for me. So, Tristen brings out this card and kenny told me to read it....I can't remember at the moment what the card said...but when I opened it, it was playing the chicken song and Kenny and Tristen started doing the chicken dance...LOL! It made me laugh and laugh! Oh my sweeties! I guess I didn't realize how my mood was reading out to my children. My boy knew momma needed some cheer-up! I asked Kenny if he told Tristen to get this for me. He said No...as soon as he walked in he told me he wanted to get you some flowers or something. My sweet lil'man! When we least expect it the Lord brings you BACK to realize whats more important...Family, Friends!

In Prayer
In Thought
In Thanks

Cecily

Letter to Santa

If you can't read the small print, it says "I also love God and Jesus."

My sweet, sweet girl.

Being thankful is constant

Well, it Thursay Dec. 11th 2008 aprox. 9:33 pm and I am bright eye and bushy tail...lol! My hubby went to bed about 2 hours ago and the kids are all snug as a bug in a rug...well except Blair she has already been up and down about 3 times tonight...guess I will have to give her shorter naps! But I think she is finally asleep...SIGH...the peace and quiet.... I try to get this at least once everyday whether its early in the morn, nap-time or late, late, late at night. Today it just so happened my hubby is not feeling so well, so we didn't get to have our usual late night talks...which I LOVE!!! But I guess we all need a break from the usual routine and I guess tonight is that night. So, here I am to collect my thoughts and update you on the happenings.

Things have actually been going Great around here. I am so thankful and blessed! Of course there are the every now and then thought of "I wish I had ___" ...you fill in the blanks, but I remind myself that I am thankful I HAVE!!!
If you could only see my house you would understand my fustrations....if its not the floor, now its the roof trying to fall in the living room, the mold problem and oh...the old house smell!! But with all of that said, I am thankful that I have a roof over my head and shelter from the storms...oh and its PAID for! I think thats what I like most about it!:) Yea...you might ask or wonder how can you live in that! Well, I consider myself to be very, very, very, BLESSED despite the looks of the place. This place use to be my husbands G-maws whom they called NANNY. I remember when I first walked in this house and was amazed on how low the ceiling were, but how cozy it felt and how neat she kept it. I use to love to come here and visit with her cause it made me feel...well...good. After she passed it went to his brother and sis-in-law, then when he passed, she had it for awhile and decided to let us stay here till we could find something else. Well, at the time...we couldn't afford anything else and on several occasions almost making the biggest mistake of our lives by purchasing a house out of town. Well, as time went on...Lola finally just cut the cord and let us have it...come to find out...she never really owned it(but thats another story)! So, after we paid the taxes kenny got it in his name. Anywho...what I am trying to say is, is that we are blessed! I couldn't see it at first...but I think the Lord working through my hubby...He finally opened my eyes!! Lola was gracious to have us stay here for awhile rent free...so we will be forever in debt to her. Thank-you Lord for having those people here at the right times for us! You always know whats best for us. Well...goin back to the "biggest mistake"...meaning to purchase something when you know you can't "really" afford it cause if you could well...you would have bought it out right or at least had the biggest down payment to where your monthly bill would be within your range. Oh yea...you know where this is going...need I say more....DAVE RAMSEY!! FREEEEDDDOOOOMMM!!! Oh yea...I can say it...cause we have been DEBT FREE for several months now! Oh and does it feel so good! When I hear those people on his radio show call in and Yell FRRREEEEDDOOOMM!!! I want to cry my eyeballs out!!! I guess you would have to understand the meaning of it to get the gest of it. And the meaning is....I'm not telling...cause you will need to do your own research if you are in the SERIOUS market of being DEBT FREE! I've tried explaining, but I promise I don't do it justice.

Oh yea back to the house...
Well, lets just say in the beginning I fought it and fought it...no, not meaning I literally took a hammer to it and beat it down myself though at times it did cross my mind! No, I mean I fought my husband on moving and moving so more....so much so...that it was creating a wedge between us....and thats where as I said before my EYES were finally opened! Now...we are content in the since that we have been able to save money and by next spring "hopefully" will be able to start doing some renovating. I'm so excited about it...we have already started pricing and have plans to do our living room and bathroom first because they are in much need of an emergency makeover! OOOohhh I just can't wait!
So...there is Hope for this lil' ole house....:) If you only knew what we lived in after we got married...(thats another story) LOL!
Oh and I musn't forget....CL...he is another reason why we are still here. Everytime we have contemplated on making the move...his name would always come up. We realize he is getting older and has no children and we are all that he's got. I have to say we are so blessed to have him in our lives.

Well, I came here having no idea what I was goin to type about and this all just flowed out...lol!
Until Next time...
BE THANKFUL!:)
Cecily

Did you miss me?...lol!

Well...it has been awhile! I think I might just have some time for this today...thats unless the hubby pops in from his meeting here in a bit, then I will have to shut down operation...lol!
ALOT has gone on from last blog. I have got a J-O-B....:) I have been working for about 3wks now. I'm actually quite excited about it cause I get to bring my lil ones with me and work anytime I want! Ya wanna know what I do? I'm a cleaning lady for the VFW...:) I know that doesn't sound very exciting for some, but I consider myself very BLESSED to have this Job! I am meeting alot of different people and hoping to HELP this organization in the long run. Its having its share of problems and Kenny and I are hoping to change that SOON! Thats where he is right now...at his once a month VFW meeting.

Anywho...the kids are all doing well! Meri comes home with Alot of homework and now Tristen has started to bring some home! So, my afternoons are HECTIC! I had a friend call me today to go to the park with her and her daughter, but I had to say No...:(...cause it was just bad timing! I actually had supper ready anf fixed today! We have been so busy these last few weeks that I barely get to supper. I played it smart today though and put a roast on before I left for work!

I have been so tired these last few days also! I actually made a bad decision and went to South Haven with my inlaws and we didn't get home till about 10 or so. Well, I have to clean up the VFW on Sundays for sure, so I went out there to get started about 11pm and didn't come home till about 1am...let me remind you that this is a BIG building and it was a bit SPOOKY out there all by my lonesome! I had to sing a few HYMNS to keep my mind off a few things! Well...the next day (Mon.) I got up about 5:30am to 6am and got the kids ready for school, then took them to school and off to work again! I got there at 7am and didn't leave to 11am. Now its Tuesdays and I got out there this morning to clean again before the meeting. I have had no complaints so far...except for maybe restocking the bathrooms. I don't know why... I just forget...guess cause I am trying to make sure everything else is spotless and things are where they should be, meaning I have to move tables and chairs by myself! I guess its a good work out for me...lol!
Sooo...Yes I do consider myself very Blessed to have a lil'job considering how things are going in the economy. I'm just hoping to keep it considering the economy...:I Either way I will be involved some way with this organizationg considering my hubby is a VFW member. I just hope we can make a difference here! Oh...and If all goes well, Dad should be working some out there as a maintenance man! They sure do need one!

Well, I think I am goin to try and turn in early today. I'm sure I've missed a few things I wanted to talk about, but I have been so tired these past few days with working and plus staying up with the hubby talking all wee hours of the night and then morn...lol! I love it though! I love my life! I am a Very, Very BLESSED Woman! :)

Till next time...hopefully it want be so long this time! ;)
~HUGS~
Cecily

Ramble...Ramble..

Well, its been awhile since I have blogged. Life sure has been busy! I do however find time for myspace, but thats for a quick jump on and then jump off...lol! My hubby has been home ever since Thurs. and he is not very fond of myspace or me even being on the computer....sigh...Men! So, I haven't been on like I would like to, to blog! If you have seen me make changes on my myspace page thats because he was either gone for a few hours or outside doing yard work...lol!

I usually have to blog in the mornings after everyone is off to school and work and my lil ones are watching George. I was going to try and do it at night, but my hubby seems to want ALL of me at night...lol! I'm glad that we have that time though...with 4 kids its not that easy! So, usually night time is "Our time"....whether its sitting out on the deck talking the night away or watching the Apple Dumpling Gang (what a funny movie). Fot the past few weeks though we have all been sick with a sinus cold and are just now starting to get over it! We actually made it to church this Sunday, which was nice! It was really good to see everybody and listen to the worship band! The preacher talked about those being a hearer and not a doer of the scripture. Thats something so many of us do. We go to church to get our "fill" but when we come back into the real world, all that is learned on Sunday is not with us for the rest of the week. This is something I am definetly working on!

We had friends we haven't seen in along time come visit us yesterday. We grilled and chilled...is what I like to call it...lol! It was really good seeing them and just having another girl-friend to talk to. She is a sweety! She even washed my dishes without me knowing ( I was outside with the men folks and I thought she was in the bathroom...lol). Oh...she does hair, massages, manicures, and all that salon stuff...lol! So, if you are ever in the area...just holla and I'll get ya the hook-up...;)

Oh...I went to go visit my mom and dad last week! It was soooo good seeing them! I actually popped in on them...they had no idea I was coming! Of course...I have no cell phone anymore and no long distance, so I had no way of letting them know...lol! I was just goin to take a chance and was so glad I did! My mom's birthday is coming up, so I am thinking about making another surprise visit...;)

Well, its another beautiful day! The hubby is off today and left out not to long ago to go to the hunting land. They are getting it ready for the new season! Can you believe fall is almost here!? I love Fall weather...can't wait to pile some leaves up and jump in them...lol! Ok...maybe not me, but I'm sure the kids would Love it! That reminds me, when my cuz Tim and I would rack leaves for Aunt Josie and pile them up so high and then get a ladder and jump off in them. Those were the days...

Speaking of...I've got my moms old photos, maybe next blog I'll share some old memories with ya...:)

Well, this concludes my rambling...until next time folks! :)

Cecily

My August Baby

My Big Girl turned 7 yesterday! I can't believe she is already 7! She is such a sweety! We have been trying to do things different for the past 2 yrs. by having small parties with just family. So, we went to her favorite restaurant this year...which is Pizza Inn and had such a good time! Afterwards we came home and sang Happy Birthday to her again with another cake and opened her presents. She told us that this was her best birthday ever...lol! I'm blessed that she realized this year the importance of being thankful! I have to say that she is amazingly smart for her age and is so excited about being in the LEAP program this year! The LEAP program is a group of students with IQ's of 120 plus and have been ruled eligible by the Local Survey Committee. I'm sure this is going to be an experience for us parents as well...lol! She loves to read and is very good at Math. She also loves to draw! I will have to share one of her drawings soon! Loves to do crafty things...reminds me of myself when I was a wee lade...lol! She misses dance class ALOT...hopefully we can afford it again! Her best friend is a lil Mexican girl named Cheyenne. Its funny cause when she is with us everyone thinks Cheyenne is my little girl instead of Meri. She played T-ball last year and will be on the Soft-ball team this year! She says she wants to marry her daddy when she grows up...lol! Of course we had to explain to her about all that! She is getting to be sooo TALL! Right now she is up to my chest in height and thats not including her hair...lol! Speaking ok... she gets so many compliments on her blonde locks! She use to tell those who asked her "where'd you get that curly hair from"...she would say, "God gave it to me"...:) If that want put a smile on a parents face I don't know what will...lol! She loves to go riding on her 4-wheelers when we are out at their Nana and Pops. She is such a good Helper and is so eager to please! Oh and she loves Word Girl that comes on PBS. She also has a thing for Horses! Well it seems as though I can keep going on and on about my Big Girl, but I better end it here...lol! Oh...wait! I have to tell you about something she drew after VBS one day. She drew 3 crosses and I think she had on there I love you Jesus. Then she wrote "take this Jesus". She left it on the table and then the next morning it was still there, she asked why didn't he take it mommy? Of course I tried my best to explain. Anywho...I thought that was very sweet! K, I'm thru...lol!

Until Next time...:)
God Bless!
Cecily

Mixed Emotions...

TODAY---Its a beautiful sunny day, My Big girl turns 7, just found out that my hubby might get activated because of a Hurricane, been afraid to venture out to a part of town where I want to get my daughter her "HAPPY" all because of an incident that happened to me on Tues., I'm "suppose" to go see mi familia this weekend in the Delta...etc.

Mixed Emotions...all these things running through my mind at the moment! Lord, please ease my mind and worries!

I'll soon be putting a pic up of the Birthday Girl when I get a chance.

To be continued...

Well, I ran all my errands with the help of C.L. (he is such a life saver)! I'll share more about him later. So, it all wasn't to bad...until I found myself talking to a complete stranger about my issue on Tues. I feel like such an idiot!! I told ya I can strike up a conversation with just about anyone, but sometimes my mouth can get away from me! Let's just say, she dodged the conversation...guess she didn't know what to say or was a bit shocked! I just feel so VIOLATED and no one else seems to understand how "serious" this situation could have turned out! Thank-God it didn't! He was definetly watching over us that day!

More About Me...:)

Since I was only limited to so many characters on the "about me section" I decided to put my original version here:

Are you ready?
Here we go...

I am a stay at home mom with 4 children all which range from the ages of 7 to 1yrs old. I love music and love to dance! I play guitar and love to sing! I use to sing and play in church and sing in a Jazz Band while in college, but since married life and kids I am not so brave anymore. I also use to be in the color guard in college! So, now I prefer my home as of right now to practice my dance moves, vocals and choice of instruments! (I'm working on the "getting out" part). I love to draw...but haven't found much time for that talent either here lately! I am what some may call a Tom-boy! I like to hunt, fish, and get dirty if I have to. I find myself cutting grass, weed-eating, and loading up trailers full of junk my husband seems to find so I can haul off whether it be behind our shed in a non-visible place or off to a junk-yard! I am the type of person when I start something I will finish it or it will bother me all day! I am not perfect and have made quite a few mistakes in my life, but I choose to learn from them and MOVE ON!! I use to love to write poems and even made a few into songs, but only a few have heard me sing them, only because they are kind of personal! Maybe one day I'll have the nerve to post!? I consider myself to be a loyal friend and a people person when I am in the "mood"! I am one to strike up a conversation with anyone as long as they seem welcoming of one! You know the type that will keep there head in a magazine just so they want have to talk to anyone or those that want make eye contact (they are off my conversation list). I want go out of my way! (K, I know thats not Christian-like...I'm working on that too!) I'm a bit of a people pleaser, but when my toes get stepped on to many times, believe me, you will hear about it! I have started to look at the world from a different perspective, this all will come later in a blog I'm sure! I have been trying to live my life for Christ! It definitely hasn't been easy especially when the "wolf" seems to always come knocking at your door! But it’s only by the Grace of God that we don't fall to far from Him! Oh and last, but not least, my hubby, my best friend, my soldier! I have watched him fall in so many ways, but only to pick himself up again and Never give UP! He is the only one beside the Lord up above that knows everything about me, from my faults and my most inner fears! I love him with all my HEART!:)
I want to Thank-You for taking the time to read my blog and go on this journey we call life with us! Enjoy!

---Now I feel better...I prolly could add more, but whats the Fun in getting to know me all in one day...lol!

~HUGS~
Cecily